A Letter to our Baby Boy….
As I’m writing this letter to you, I am 39 weeks + 2 days pregnant….it could be any day now that we get to meet you, and your Daddy and I are getting so excited!
I know that people around us are getting anxious to meet you (your mama has never been so popular / gotten so many calls and messages!), but I’m feeling like you aren’t quite ready to make your way into the world just yet. I think that it will be at least another full week before we get to see your sweet face. That’s okay with me – you take your time, there’s absolutely no rush.
We’ve been busy getting ready for your arrival this week now that I’m off work. Yesterday night we setup your baby monitor and your mobile in your crib. I’m loving how your room has come together, and I hope that it is perfect for you to get lots of sleep. I also found the most perfect storage containers that hang over the back of your closet door, and that made my whole day!
I had another ultrasound to check on you earlier this week, and they estimated your weight at 6 pounds 10 ounces. I’d love for you to gain a bit more weight before you are born my love, your mama worries about you! I’m trying to eat lots of good, healthy foods for you this week, and hopefully we can get a few more ounces on you before the big day!
You have the best Daddy in the entire world waiting for you out here baby boy. Watching your Dad take this pregnancy so seriously, and be so in tune with you every day has just made my heart swell. He reads to you every single night in my belly, has been to all of your prenatal appointments with me, and makes sure to talk to you in there every single day. I worry sometimes that I won’t be a good enough mama for you, but I’ve never once worried about your Daddy. He will be perfect. Also, I’m sure that he will be a hero with you because he’ll be the one to feed you Kraft Dinner and hot dogs when I’m not around!
As excited as I am to meet you in person, I know I will dearly miss our days together with you on the inside. You are getting so strong in there, and always make me laugh with your crazy hard pushing on the inside of my belly. Sometimes it feels like you are going to push right through my skin! I love feeling like I always have a partner in crime with me, even when I’m “alone”. Thank you for making this pregnancy so easy on me!
I am nervous about our labour and delivery now (I haven’t been overly nervous until this point, but am getting there now for sure!). Your mom is a bit of a control freak, and not being in control of that whole situation is starting to freak me out! The only thing that really brings me peace is to think that you and I will be in it together, no matter what happens. I know that the whole thing will be a bit of an ordeal for you too – so I’ll wish you luck, just like everyone is wishing me luck out here! Hang in there and be tough – your Daddy and I are waiting for you on the other side, and it will all be worth it, I promise. Your Daddy says that he will have a deli sandwich waiting for me once you are here (I haven’t been able to eat those for the past 9.5 months because there could be bacteria that isn’t good for you!). Your mama likes deli sandwiches!
I won’t lie to you baby boy, it’s a tough world that you are coming into out here. Sometimes I lay awake thinking about what the world will look like as you grow up. My hope for you is that you and your generation will be the breath of fresh air that our world needs. That you will look for (and find) the good in every single person, regardless of circumstance or appearance. That you will work hard for every thing you have in life. That you will love and laugh freely and openly, and experience that same love and laughter back in return 100-fold. That you will take chances and make mistakes, but always hold yourself accountable for the decisions that you make, and work hard to make things right when you make the wrong ones. I know it’s a lot to put on your unborn shoulders my love, but the world is counting on you!
I’m sad to say goodbye to this chapter in our lives together sweet baby, but know that we are starting off on the greatest adventure of our lives. If you had asked me 10 months ago what my purpose on this earth was, I would have said “to teach fitness classes and make people healthier”. That may still be true to some degree, but with absolute clarity I can say now that my real purpose on this earth is to be your mama (and hopefully – mama to your future brothers / sisters some day as well). I can’t promise that I will get everything right (in fact, I can promise you that I won’t get everything right), but I can promise you that I will do my very best for you every single day – and that nobody will ever love you as much as I do. Everything else – we can figure out together.
Hang tough in there my boy – we are so close to the end, and hey, if you feel like a quick 1 hour labour will do the trick, I won’t complain! Looking so forward to meeting you!
All my love,
Your Mama xoxo