It feels these days like every day I wake up and my belly is a little bit bigger then it was the day before! Some days I swear it even gets bigger over the course of the day!
22 weeks was one of the most challenging weeks in this pregnancy to date (excluding some of those god awful early weeks when I had that hellish flu bug for 7 weeks straight of course). I’m so glad to be saying goodbye to this week and moving on to 23 and beyond.
Over this past weekend I took a trip to Thyme Maternity to look for some maternity clothes, but walked out without a single thing, feeling so frustrated by the cheesy empire-waisted EVERYTHING and the ruched cotton EVERYTHING. I left feeling so down about myself and my body; I haven’t felt like this much of a slob since my awkward teen years.
This mama is in total denial and is digging in her heels on the whole “need to buy maternity clothes” thing, but today with my ill-fitting pants and too-short-shirt, I basically have my belly hanging out at work and look like I should be propped up against a saggy chicken-wire fence with a beer in one hand and a cigarette in the other.
It’s time Sara. It’s time.
The Gap has been mildly better for maternity clothes, but you can only order their maternity stuff online, which means you can’t try anything on (which is how I ended up with said ill-fitting, trailer park pants that I’m currently wearing lol). I may try my luck at Old Navy this weekend, as one of the only maternity items that I actually like is my plain black t-shirt dress. Maybe I can just get 10 more of those, and make it through the next 3.5 months. A girl can dream, right?
One productive thing that we did manage to get done over the weekend was to pick out and buy our crib mattress! What I thought would be a super-easy decision turned into quite a discussion in the store! Who knew that there were so many options! I was pleased with our decision, and in general have been pleased that I’ve managed to keep a pretty rational head about all of this baby stuff. It’s easy to get sucked into thinking that you need to spend thousands of dollars on everything, but when you step back and really think about it, I’ve been pretty happy with my ability to spot a gimmick and make a more reasonable choice (in most cases – baby bathtub aside ;)).
Aside from the maternity clothes crisis of 2017, my head just wasn’t in a great place over the weekend. Anxiety was high, self-esteem extremely low, and I was just feeling extremely down and emotional. I know this is probably just pregnancy hormones at work – but say that to my face and I can’t promise that I won’t punch you 😉
Work has been stressful the past several weeks / months too, and I just can’t wait to start my maternity leave and get out of here. I know the stress and the environment here isn’t good for me or for babe, so I’m trying my best to limit how much things get to me and adopt the whole “water off a ducks back” mentality. Much easier said than done.
I had some scary symptoms earlier this week that drove me to call my midwives hotline in tears saying that I thought I should come into the hospital. They were very sweet and kind to me, asked me lots of questions and spent over a half hour on the phone with me reassuring me that from what I was describing, it didn’t sound like anything serious, and that babe would be just fine. I have my next midwife appointment on Monday June 12th, so I’m really looking forward to that and to chatting some more with my midwife about the whole episode (which in hindsight, and with a clearer head, really wasn’t a big deal at all).
SO – all in all, not the best week of the pregnancy to date, but I’m DETERMINED that 23 will be a better week. I’m already 2 days in and am feeling much better and clearer-headed about things. We are planning to do some shopping for a glider chair this weekend, and I’d love to make a final decision on that (we’ve been looking for a while!), and I’d love to take another run at our basement and see if we can get another 100 pounds of stuff out of it too.
Food-wise, I’ve been eating oooookay….although I did cave and eat half a box of Kraft Dinner yesterday (but technically that was in 23 weeks – so that’s a sin I don’t have to account for until next week ;-))….DAMN that stuff is good. Whoever said that a box of that stuff should feed a family of 4 people was dreadfully off course….Matt was lucky that he got to keep his half of the box.
I have my eye on our upcoming baby shower at the end of June – I’m so excited to see everyone!! I’ve also planned a lifestyle photo shoot with our family members from out of town for before the shower, and am really looking forward to that too!! I’m hoping that the next two weeks speed on by!!
Well – babe and I will sign off for now, hope that you all enjoy the sun and a great weekend ahead – sending you best wishes for a clear head and a light heart!
-Sara & Babe xo