If you notice the time stamp on this entry, you may (or may not) notice that it is race day morning at 11am…and here I am posting a blog entry. Sigh.
I made the toughest call that I’ve made in years to skip Around the Bay. After 4 long weeks of dealing with this atrocious sore on my foot, it has finally, finally healed up enough that I’m able to wear a running shoe without pain, BUT, it still isn’t absolutely 100% perfect. (I would give it 93% to be exact). And the deal was that it had to be perfect. 93% doesn’t cut it.
DISCLAIMER – IF YOU’RE SQUEAMISH, OR DON’T WANT TO LOOK AT A PICTURE OF MY FOOT – AVERT YOUR EYES NOW!!!
Here is my foot today (it looks much worse than it feels – it’s all new skin so I can hardly feel it anymore!)
It is sooo much better, but just not where I need it to be….yet.
A little piece of my heart knows that I could have pushed through and finished the race. But for once, my brain spoke up louder than my heart, and reminded me (sternly) that Around the Bay is not the goal race. The goal race is San Diego, and the goal is to represent the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society strong in the marathon. Running Around the Bay on my foot the way it is right now, while it might make me feel happy and proud of myself, I feel, would put San Diego in jeopardy. And that’s why I decided to skip it. Simple as that.
I am absolutely, admittedly, terrified of what missing this race means for the marathon. I haven’t run in a month (since the Chilly Half). This 30km race was supposed to be a huge check in the box for me, a huge stepping stone, that I slipped on, and ended up face first in the river instead of skipping across the water.
In all of my infinite wisdom, I guess I never really factored in what you should do when instead of jumping easily from stepping stone to stepping stone, you miss a step and end up face first in the water with some broken teeth. Guess I’ll have to let you know after I’ve dried myself off and gotten back up on the rock 😉
Anyways – my head is in the right place, and that’s a win. I’m focused, and I’m more determined than ever to pick myself up, dust myself off and get on with it. My foot is finally in a place where I can start to think about running on it again, and my plan is to start this Friday. Missing Around the Bay means that I’m going to have to rely on my own motivation to get my butt out the door and do a (couple of) 30km training runs on my own, without the motivation of a race. I’ll let you know how that goes!
Have a fabulous Sunday, I hope that your own stepping stones are coming along, and that your training is progressing a little smoother than my own at the moment!!! Keep the faith, trust the process, and we’ll all make it to the finish line together. No guarantees on whether our sanity will make it with us. 😉