Month: August 2017

32 Weeks

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Hiya Friends!

Colours! So many colours!

I thought it would be fun this week to do a little side-by-side comparison of the past several weeks, since it’s been such a huge growth spurt for Babe and I! Check it out!

Left Side: 32 Weeks, Right Side: 27 Weeks

We’re getting there! My BabyCentre app tells me that today (the very start of 33 weeks), Babe weighs about as much as a pineapple. An interesting visual, but we’ll take it!

I thought that I had made a break through with the whole maternity pant thing last week when I bought two new pairs of pants from the Gap with a “demi-panel” (the last style that I haven’t yet tried / failed at for maternity pants). I was very pumped when I first tried the pants on because standing up they were super comfy! Sadly, when it comes to sitting down all day (or even for 5 minutes for that matter), it turns out that they were sent straight from Hades, and will never be worn again.

I give up.

This week I’ve officially thrown in the towel and am just wearing my Lululemon leggings to work, even though it’s wildly inappropriate. Screw it, I’ll figure out the whole maternity clothes thing for my next pregnancy. Maybe.

This week has been a pretty quiet one on the home front, Matt took a trip out to Winnipeg to visit with our friends Jeff, Sydney and their super sweet little babe Alexandra, who was born several weeks early back in June. She’s been doing so well, and it was so nice that Matt had a chance to get out to see her and Jeff and Sydney before our Babe arrives! I was a teeny tiny bit nervous while he was gone that something crazy would happen and I would go into labour while he was a plane ride away, but thankfully the most eventful happening of the weekend was a movie date with my best friend Lindsay to watch the (fairly mediocre) Fate of the Furious movie and eat my (rather impressive) weight in snacks.

Mmmmm snacks.

I had a wedding shower to go to on the Sunday, and got myself into a bit of a mood over nothing because I was feeling so frustrated with having to be so concerned about what I’m eating all the time. If you’ve followed along with my pregnancy since the beginning, you know all about my paranoia with food safety, and although I’m happy to say that it’s gotten much better as I’ve progressed further, I’m still avoiding a ton of foods that make eating out (or anywhere where I’m not controlling the food for that matter) pretty challenging.

The wedding shower was a Spanish Tapas theme (so cool!), and a total “foodie dream” complete with a live chef preparing the appetizers right in front of us, but I found that I wasn’t able to eat 95% of the food because I couldn’t get out of my head about the cheeses, the spices, the meats……on and on.

My family went out for dinner after the shower, and lo and behold, there wasn’t ONE SINGLE THING on the menu at the fancy-ish, foodie restaurant that we went to that I really felt comfortable eating (seriously – foodie spots, NOT FOR ME, at least not during this pregnancy)….please for the love of god just give me a simple pasta or a thoroughly-cooked protein, carb and vegetable (without soft cheese and other craziness all over it) ……….. please!!

My pelvic pain definitely bumped up a few notches this week on the pain scale, to the point where I thought I would mention it to my midwife at our appointment on Monday. I’m rocking a pretty sweet “waddle” these days, and if you’d like to try and imitate what I look like (you know….for some reason…. LOL), then perform this simple exercise:

  1. Stand up
  2. Attempt to walk 25 feet in a straight line without moving your pelvis in any way

Annnd there you have it. The Sara WaddleTM

She referred me to an osteopath in Burlington, and I’ve booked an appointment with him for early September, so here’s hoping that he can help! She also referred me to a pre-natal massage therapist, who I’ve also booked an appointment with in a few weeks time, so I’m very hopeful that between that and the osteopath that relief is on the horizon!

My back has been acting up a little bit over the past few weeks as well, more towards the second half of the day, as I spend most of my day sitting at a desk. This is definitely more manageable, and I think if I did a better job of getting up and stretching throughout the day, I could probably help to mitigate some of this for sure.

I’m forcing myself into a bit of a holding pattern on a couple of remaining tasks like packing our hospital bags, doing freezer meals and stock-piling household items (shampoo, toilet paper, paper towels etc etc) just so that I feel like I have some productive things left on my list to do to fill up those last few weeks when I know that time will slow down even more than it already has (seriously…..crraaaaaazzzzyyyyyyyyyy slow moving weeks lately). I’ve got my eye on 35 weeks to get our hospital bags ready, and start freezer meals. Maybe shortly after that to start stock-piling.

I think we have just about everything that Babe needs now (I had a bit of an OCD flip-out over the weekend and took every single sleeper, onesie and article of clothing out of his dresser, re-folded half of it using a different folding method, and hung up the other half of it in the closet….don’t ask…..), but I still need to pick up a few things for myself like nursing tanks / bras and some “in-between” clothes that will be comfortable to transition back to my regular clothes (SOMEBODY SAY HALLELUJAH).

This weekend is completely spoken for as I’m off to the Can Fit Pro conference in Toronto for my 10th consecutive year! This year will look a lot different than it normally does for me, because I’m just not able to do 9 hours of intense exercise in one day this year, but I’ll darn sure be doing my best to keep up with my super-fit friends and the rest of my tribe! I’m hoping that Babe won’t mind the busy weekend!

Well, I think that’s about all from Babe and I this week, and so I’ll finish off this week’s post on a bit of a more somber / serious note. What’s going on south of our border recently has really shocked and horrified me (as it has all of us really). I’m fearful every day that this escalates about the kind of world that me and the rest of us are bringing our sweet little babes into. What kind of world will we leave for them to inherit? Will I seriously have to be concerned about my Babe falling in line with the wrong crowd some day and carrying a torch down the street at night screaming that white people will never be replaced? Or on the other hand, feeling so helpless and horrified by the situation, that he goes to a rally to protest the behaviour, and ends up being rammed with someone’s car?

I guess I’ve always kind of lived by the motto that we need to be the change we wish to see in the world, but these days, it hardly feels like that is enough.

Anyways – just where my head and heart is at this week. Sending much love to all of you – and to your extended circles as well. I count myself so lucky to be surrounded by such a wonderful network of truly good people, and to live where we do.

-Sara & Babe xo

 

 

31 Weeks

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First of all – I wanted to say a HUGE, massive thank you for the all of the thoughtful condolences and well wishes that I received for my Grandpa last week – and also for the all of the good news that was shared with me!! Each and every piece of good news put a big smile on my face, so THANK YOU for that!!

This week has been a bit of a whirlwind, but much smoother emotionally then last week for sure. We drove back up to the Sault on Thursday morning and arrived in time for the celebration of life on Thursday night. Lots of people I know say that they don’t want a formal funeral, and my Grandpa was one of those people, but I just know that he would have loved what his kids put together for him! It was a really nice night, and a lot of fun! The whole thing started with a mix and mingle at the funeral home with desserts and drinks, nothing formal, just a chance to visit with family that we haven’t seen in a long time. Then the party moved back to my Grandma’s house, where we ended up passing around my Grandpa’s last bottle of brandy and telling funny stories about him (no brandy for Babe and I – don’t worry 😉 ). Everyone that told a story had to take a shot of brandy afterwards, and it ended up being a ton of fun. He would have just loved it!

**A quick side note of clarification from last week: I realized that when I initially wrote my 30 Week post that I was a bit unclear about my Grandpa’s name / Babe’s middle name!! Babe’s middle name will be Walter in honour of my Grandpa (and future Babes will also take their grandparents names as their middle name as well!). We won’t be announcing Babe’s first name until he arrives….sorry!! 😉

We drove back home on Friday, and Babe and I were quite happy to get out of the car after spending 36 hours on the Trans Canada in 6 days!! Thankfully, the long weekend was waiting for us when we got home, and we had a few days to relax and unwind!!

It honestly did take me a full day and a half to recover from the crazy car rides, I wasn’t feeling 100% on Saturday, but by Sunday was pretty well back to normal. My sleep has been pretty good, but I’m definitely dealing with more aches and pains over the course of the day, particularly in my upper back and my pelvis. Babe, babe, babe….. you’re getting heavy in there little fellow!!

He’s been such an active little monkey again this week, it still just cracks me up to see my belly moving around through my shirt. My midwife was right, and most of his movements have changed from short little jabs or kicks to more “rolling” type movements as poor little man runs out of room in there!! I’m having a hard time imagining that he will likely DOUBLE IN WEIGHT between now and when he is born…….EEKS!! How will he fit?! My back?! My pelvis?! LOL!!

I’ve seriously lost my nesting mojo (thank you LORD that I was so productive in the second trimester), in particular when it comes to cooking. Few things in life excite me LESS these days than standing in front of the meat section at the grocery store trying to figure out what the F we should have for dinner in a week. Matt’s been very helpful thank goodness, but I’ve been super unimpressed with myself the past few weeks. Come on Sara…GET IT TOGETHER.

I have a big giant list of things that I need / want to get done before Babe arrives, but like I said, my mojo has been fading fast!! I’m trying to give it a few more weeks before I dive into making freezer meals (because I don’t want them to go bad sitting in my freezer for months, and also because, let’s be honest, I’m a terrible cook, and I’ll be a hot mess trying to make freezer meals), and I’m also thinking of having a cleaning service in to do a deep clean of our house at some point. I’m still grappling with myself over the hair colouring thing, but I think I’ll just get over myself and do it a little closer to my due date so that at least I don’t have to worry about it once Babe is here….

At work, my replacement has officially started which is CRAZY, because it really does mean that the end is near!! We have a long 6 week period of crossover, but I’m super stoked to be handing projects over to him sooner than later (read: my earlier comments re: mojo).

I got a very cute basket of baby gifts delivered to my office from one of our suppliers this week, and guess what the feature animal was?!

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*quack quack*!!

In general, time seems to have really slowed down this week, it feels like Week 31 dragged on and on….but here we are on the other side, and I’m ready for Week 32!! Matt is off to Winnipeg this week to visit our close friends and their super sweet little babe Alexandra (our Babe’s future buddy for life / wife), and I’ll be busy with errands, a movie date with my best friend and our hot guys driving fast cars (Fast and the Furious……kind of a tradition lol), and a wedding shower for my neighbour.

As per usual in life – I’m finding myself caught in the struggle of eagerly anticipating what’s to come and wishing for it to arrive, and trying desperately to live in the moment and enjoy the journey. Some days I’m the latter, and some days I’m the former!

Well, that’s enough out of me for this week, for now, Babe and I are off for our daily Drumstick!

*Insert happy dance from Babe*

F it, I’m not even sorry anymore.

-Sara & Babe xo

 

30 Weeks

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Hi Friends,

I just love these crops, so much in fact that I’ve decided I won’t be wearing them for the rest of this pregnancy, I don’t want to stretch them out and wreck them! I ordered these from my friend Renate’s Silver Icing online boutique, and I just love all of the clothes that I’ve ordered so far (believe it or not, these crops are the only workout clothes that I’ve ordered – the rest of the pieces are all “real life” clothes)! If you’re in the market for some cool new clothes, check out her website here!

(On a side note – it is seriously time for me to clean this mirror….it’s so dirty!!)

So….although I’m really thrilled to be on the other side of my 30th week, I have to admit that I’ve had a really, really hard week.

Things really turned south the morning after I posted my 29 week update last Wednesday, when I woke up to a text from my Dad that my Grandfather in Sault Ste. Marie had taken a bad fall in his retirement home, had suffered a fractured skull and had bleeding on his brain. Given the fragile condition of his heart, the decision was made by the doctor team that he could not survive the brain surgery that he needed, and was therefore transferred to palliative care.

With so much uncertainty about how much time we had before he would pass, we decided to go up to Sault Ste. Marie right away on Friday morning. We made it there by Friday evening, and had a chance to say our goodbyes. I was also able to share with him that we plan to give Babe his middle name (Walter). He passed away about 7 hours after we got there.

Things were very uncertain, and very unclear for the rest of the weekend. We had no idea for a few days what would be happening in terms of a funeral / celebration of life, but finally learned on Sunday afternoon that there would be a celebration of life on Thursday evening. This made things difficult for us because both Matt and I would be missing an entire week of work (on top of the Friday that we had already missed). We made the decision to come home on Sunday, work Monday – Wednesday, and then drive back up this Thursday (tomorrow).

Unfortunately, best-laid plans didn’t really hold true on the way home, and a huge accident on the Highway 69 closed the road for 5 hours. It took us nearly 12 hours to drive home from Sault Ste. Marie (normally a 7 – 8 hour drive) and we ended up having to double back all the way to Sudbury to take an alternate route.

I was so extremely anxious and worried about being in the car for so long with Babe, and being so far off the beaten road and far away from a hospital as well. The whole thing was really not a good scene. The rest of this week has been exhausting in it’s own way. I’ve felt a complete and total, absolute lack of support from my family this week that’s really upset me and put a lot of stress on Babe and I.

In lighter news, OMG you guys, Babe has never been more active then he has been the past week! It’s seriously hilarious! He’s squirming around in there all day long, there is a very rare minute where I can’t feel him! His movements are so strong now that I can see them through my clothes! It just cracks me up (Matt too!). When we were up in the Sault, he was moving around so vigorously that we could see him through the quilt on the hotel room bed! LOL

I had an ultrasound at the end of this week, and Babe clocks in at 3 pounds 9 ounces (above the 3 pound 3 ounce average for 31 weeks)! I can’t believe I have an almost 4 pound baby rolling around inside of me! The big news from the ultrasound was that he isn’t transverse anymore…..little guy is head down, and ready to go!! WOOHOO!! Thanks Babe, you heard my desperate plea from last week!! Maybe all of that vigorous moving was actually him making the flip….

My pelvic pain has been about the same as last week, but thankfully it hasn’t gotten any worse! Now that Babe is head down, I’m super hopeful that this will let up a bit. Time will tell…. maybe I have a few burpee tuck jumps left in me for this pregnancy after all??? (I kid, I kid….;)).

My energy levels have been low this week for sure, but I’m chalking that up mostly to stress, and struggling to eat decently while traveling. I’ve still been sleeping decently despite it all – so THANK YA JESUS for that.

To finish on a happy note, I had a great dinner / catch-up with some work friends yesterday night, and so many exciting things are happening for my friends these days (both work and not!). One of my friends announced that she was pregnant, one is  off to do her MBA, one is coming back to work after her maternity leave, and one of my oldest and dearest friends from outside of work just got engaged! It is the season of celebrations and good news….

I’m trying really hard to focus on all of this good and to let go of the bad, but I’m not perfect, and more often then I’d like this week I’ve found myself slipping down a dark road into the negative. I’m really hoping to turn around these thought patterns for next week – so if you’ve got some good news to share, PLEASE, I’d love to hear it!! Tell me what is going wonderfully in your life so that I can celebrate with you!!

9 weeks to go….single digit weeks….ACK!!

-Sara & Babe xo